So far so good

Almost immediately after I did the test the symptoms appeared. I was so bloody tired. There'so tiredness quite like it. The morning sickness started earlier with you than Flynn. I would look forward to his afternoon sleep so I could take myself off for a nanna nap.
At around 9 weeks we went to QLD for a holiday. The weather was great and we had a lovely time but I felt so sick for most of it. I didn't care cos it meant you were growing and doing all the things you should've been. We went to Seaworld but didn't go on any of the rides in case something happened to you. I remember saying to Dad that we should come back when you were about 5 or 6 then we could all go on the rides together.
I was so looking forward to the 12 week scan. I couldn't wait to see you and see your heart beating. The Dr that did your scan was really nice - you can hear him talking on the DVD. Hearing your strong heartbeat was the most magical sound - and such a relief. The Dr said you were a good size and that we were spot on with our dates and that there was little chance you had downs syndrome. He didn't do a 4D scan like we got with Flynn but we have a picture of you. To be honest darl, its not a great shot of you. I'm sorry we'll never see how beautiful you would've been. I don't think anyone looks their best at 12 weeks.
I started showing with you fairly early. Mc Dreamy said most of it was gas and also my muscles ( I have muscles??) were looser because of Flynn. I was so proud of my bump. I loved comparing it with the others in Mothers Group. We went to the movies the week you were born and there was 4 of us sitting in a row, all with different size bumps. It was hilarious to look at and I loved the fact that you were going to have all these little friends to play with.
The last scan we had of you measured you at 16 weeks 4 days. I struggle with that because I am positive I felt you move a lot that night at the movies. Even dad thought he felt you move in bed one night. To be honest, at around 18-19 weeks I began to worry a bit that I hadn't felt you move much. They say you feel your second child earlier because you know what it feels like. They also say you feel more movement after 20 weeks. So, while I was worried I wasn't too concerned because I thought I was being paranoid and that after I had my 20 week scan I would have piece of mind that you were OK.